Admittedly Short Post

Just wanted to inform everyone that I've started a story through livejournal. It's entirely experimental and may end up not being finished when I turn back to my (not online) series. The working title for the story is "Alternatively" and will follow a teenager's journey as she slowly discovers her alternate personalities.

Please check it out.

Dissociative Identity Disorder (also known as Multiple Personality Disorder) is a real disease that often affects children and teenage victims of abuse.

(++) If anyone has a link to a movie, article, or documentary that will give an interesting first person view of DID/MPD, it would be much appreciated.

Things I Hate

-That ringing noise you hear when a surge protector is turned on
-Hypocrisy
-People who hurt children
-People who hurt animals
-Misrepresentation of an illness in the media
-Ignorance
-People who intentionally remain ignorant for the sake of proving a point
-Racism
-The fact that organizations like the Klu Klux Klan still exist
-Papaya
-The Dragon Ball Evolution trailer

Talking To My Past

So littleradge uploaded this video a couple weeks back (that I only just watched) expressing ten things he would tell his younger self if given the chance. Unfortunately, I have no camera. (BOO) So I'm gonna write 'em here. (YAY!)
NOTE: The ten things written here are different from the ten written as a comment on littleradge's video. (I'm writing to 8-year-old Nicky)

1. Start watching old Doctor Who episodes because when the new show starts you will be slightly confused.

2. Stop eating all that junk food crap. In ten years, it will matter.

3. You know those kids who won't really hang out with you too much because you look different and those guys who never seem to get crushes on you because you're darker than them? They're not gonna mean much to you in ten years. Never mind it.

4. You know that money Mum started saving as "spending money"? Do not spend it on a PSP. You're only gonna end up trading that for an iPod which will get stolen. Buy a CAMERA.

5. Forget about "Casper meets Wendy". Hilary Duff is gonna suck after Lizzie McGuire.

6. Boys don't drool. Hang out with them because in a couple years, girls are gonna feel all superior because they think they've started puberty and they don't even realise that you got your period this summer (at 10) and they get all bitchy. Seriously.

7. Don't feel discouraged because your dad isn't around. He does try.

8. You have a knack for drawing and writing. Stick to those because in a few years it'll get really confusing.

9. You know how moving around always gets you really depressed and p'o'd? Get used to it. It still hasn't stopped.

10. Buy more shoes. I promise you won't grow out of them until you're at least 15.

If you liked that feel free to post your own or y'know comment.

Family Additions

Three main things to talk about now.

1. Grandma is back home. My grandmother has been living with my mum's sister in Florida for the past few months (since about September) and she's been having some financial issue's thanks to America's recession. She decided that because she had so many things to take care of in Jamaica that she should back into the country and get things done. It feels great having her back. My grandmother is the one person in the family that I feel I can go to about my problems 24/7. She's never too busy to lend an ear and a helping hand. I love her so dearly and was having a rough time dealing with my mother when she wasn't around.

2. Today was Uncle Xavier's birthday. (Uncle Xavier is my mum's boyfriend/fiance who we happen to live with) We sat at the dinner table, had an Italian dinner and a half-melted coconut, cream cheese and vanilla cake with strawbrry and whipped cream icing. It was pretty cool.

3. Tippy! Tippy is out new ginger kitten. He's maybe about a month old and is the cutest thing ever. We call him Tippy because he walks on his toes and rather than running, he leaps from one place to another. I'm glad that we adopted him because I work better when I have someone to take care of (besides myself) and those damn fish(es?) are not worth waking up for.

(++) I've also been watching the third season of Skins through YouTube. I'm already in love with Freddie and Emily.

Happy 2009!! And everything that comes with it.

First let me start out by wishing everyone (ie, the two people who actually read this thing) a Happy New Year!(I know January is half over, so sue me) 2009, woo! I'm gonna be 18 in two months. It feels weird to say. Your whole life as a kid, you sit down wishing you could reach that coveted age and break free with no strings attached. How wrong was I? I'm still going to be living with my mother and her boyfriend (and my brother) and still obeying their rules. I'm still going to have a curfew. I'm still going to rely on them for 85% of ...everything. God, 7 years ago I thought I'd be on my way to Julliard by now. Look at me. I'm barely getting by where I am as it is.

That reminds me, I'm at Art School now. (Still at Edna Manley College) I'm doing a course in Fashion Design, which consists of three classes: Collection Development, Fashion Illustration, Clothing Construction. It's not bad, I love the drawing and collection...I hate the sewing. But I guess I better learn to love it soon. My goal is to pass my classes this year. I want to leave behind some kind of success in my life. I don't want my kids to look back and see me as a deadbeat with no ambition. I mean I may not have a clear vision of my life but, I know I don't wanna waste it.

Speaking of dying-because it's such a happy subject-(how you liking my segues?) I was watching an episode of Scrubs online tonight. Yes, I have to catch up with the new season online, I'm so terrible. Whatever. "My Last Words" I don't know what they'll be, but if it were tonight, I think I'd let my last words be, "I'm doing better."

Funeral Playlist:
-"Leave Out All The Rest", Linkin Park
-"I Will Follow You Into The Dark", Death Cab for Cutie
-"When You're Gone", The Cranberries
-"Turn,Turn,Turn", The Byrds
-"Time After Time", Cyndi Lauper
-"The Prayer", Charlotte Church(with Josh Groban)
-"Hey Jude", The Beatles
-"Only Time", Enya
-"Somewhere Over the Rainbow", Israel Kamakawiwo
-"The Resolution", Jack's Mannequin
-"In The Sun", Joseph Arthur
-"Time To Say Goodbye", Sarah Brightman
-"Everybody Hurts", REM
-"Bohemian Rhapsody", Queen

What would happen if I died tomorrow?

30 Random Things About Me

So way back when (ie, a couple weeks ago) I got tagged in this chain of "16 random things" on Facebook. I did it, but 16 was not enough. I added more.

1. I never learned to ride a bike.
2. I bite whenever I make out. (Not nip. I full-on attack)
3. I could live on tuna, cup noodles and tomatoes as long as I have salt
4. I knew about Paramore before Riot! came out.
5. I've lied about my age online...because I like to write erotic literature....
6. I can never decide on my favorite song.
7. My real crushes switch almost as quickly as my celeb ones.
8. I have a $500 ball-jointed doll on my wishlist [She's Beautiful]
9. I don't really like people.
10. I once convinced a guy I wasn't interested in him because I'm gay...[I'm not really gay.]
11. I would do it to "Wonder Woman" by Trey Songz.
12. My fave N*Sync member was Chris Kirkpatrick.I
13. The only song by Taylor Swift that I like is "Love Story".
14. I wish I could talk like a pirate without looking like a retard or a**hole.
15. Deep down, I believe in true love.
16. I've never kissed a girl, but I have wanted to. >.<
17. I only really have one secret. That I may never tell (to anyone who doesn't already know)
18. Coke makes me hyperactive.
19. I once dreamed of killing Hilary Duff. Ah, the good old days.
20. Everytime I save up for a camera, I buy something I want less.
21. I want to have a baby. Now.
22. I never had a crush on my teachers.
23. I started watching littlreradge because he looked like "ten", but I don't care about that anymore.
24. They call me Pixi. No, I don't who "they" is.
25. I always wanted an EasyBake oven. I got the PC game instead.
26. My favourite 'Skins' character was Chris (RIP, love)
27. I wanna get it on with Kal Penn. (imdb it)
28. If you haven't guessed, I'm a pervert.
29. My realistic dreams tend to come true.
30. I was Team Edward until New Moon came out.

Next year I will...

-Be patient with a parent that does sympathise, can't empathise and does everything in her power to help.
-Try to pass some kind of art course no matter how much it takes out of me.
-Tell the guy I like that I like him, the guy that I'm over that I'm over him and the guy that I love that I want to stop missing him.
-Not lock myself in my room like a hermit 80% of the time.
-Finish reading "Catcher in the Rye". I'll have to buy it first though.
-Try not obsess over Kal Penn or Taylor Lautner.
-Not web-stalk littleradge...anymore than necessary.
-Finish writing at least one of the four stories that are stalking my brain.
-Take my medication on time.
-Not purposely get myself impregnated just because I need to be needed and my stepfather-to-be won't let me get a cat.
-Make sure that the Harry Potter Theme Park Roadtrip goes on...as long as the theme park is open by then.
-Watch 'Unborn'.
-Read at least two books by Deepak Chopra.
-Do my best. I mean it this time.