Monday, December 29, 2008

30 Random Things About Me

So way back when (ie, a couple weeks ago) I got tagged in this chain of "16 random things" on Facebook. I did it, but 16 was not enough. I added more.

1. I never learned to ride a bike.
2. I bite whenever I make out. (Not nip. I full-on attack)
3. I could live on tuna, cup noodles and tomatoes as long as I have salt
4. I knew about Paramore before Riot! came out.
5. I've lied about my age online...because I like to write erotic literature....
6. I can never decide on my favorite song.
7. My real crushes switch almost as quickly as my celeb ones.
8. I have a $500 ball-jointed doll on my wishlist [She's Beautiful]
9. I don't really like people.
10. I once convinced a guy I wasn't interested in him because I'm gay...[I'm not really gay.]
11. I would do it to "Wonder Woman" by Trey Songz.
12. My fave N*Sync member was Chris Kirkpatrick.I
13. The only song by Taylor Swift that I like is "Love Story".
14. I wish I could talk like a pirate without looking like a retard or a**hole.
15. Deep down, I believe in true love.
16. I've never kissed a girl, but I have wanted to. >.<
17. I only really have one secret. That I may never tell (to anyone who doesn't already know)
18. Coke makes me hyperactive.
19. I once dreamed of killing Hilary Duff. Ah, the good old days.
20. Everytime I save up for a camera, I buy something I want less.
21. I want to have a baby. Now.
22. I never had a crush on my teachers.
23. I started watching littlreradge because he looked like "ten", but I don't care about that anymore.
24. They call me Pixi. No, I don't who "they" is.
25. I always wanted an EasyBake oven. I got the PC game instead.
26. My favourite 'Skins' character was Chris (RIP, love)
27. I wanna get it on with Kal Penn. (imdb it)
28. If you haven't guessed, I'm a pervert.
29. My realistic dreams tend to come true.
30. I was Team Edward until New Moon came out.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Next year I will...

-Be patient with a parent that does sympathise, can't empathise and does everything in her power to help.
-Try to pass some kind of art course no matter how much it takes out of me.
-Tell the guy I like that I like him, the guy that I'm over that I'm over him and the guy that I love that I want to stop missing him.
-Not lock myself in my room like a hermit 80% of the time.
-Finish reading "Catcher in the Rye". I'll have to buy it first though.
-Try not obsess over Kal Penn or Taylor Lautner.
-Not web-stalk littleradge...anymore than necessary.
-Finish writing at least one of the four stories that are stalking my brain.
-Take my medication on time.
-Not purposely get myself impregnated just because I need to be needed and my stepfather-to-be won't let me get a cat.
-Make sure that the Harry Potter Theme Park Roadtrip goes on...as long as the theme park is open by then.
-Watch 'Unborn'.
-Read at least two books by Deepak Chopra.
-Do my best. I mean it this time.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Changing

You ever wake up one day and realise that you're a lot different from who you used to be? Neither have I. But I did pick up on it last night as I was nodding off. I had just come back from seeing Twilight. Mum and I fought when I got out of the car because I had blocked out her radio program with my constant chatter. I blamed it on excitement, but I think we both knew that it was just me being me.
The question is when did that become me? I look back and I see a quiet kid who only spoke when spoken to because she just never wanted to be part of anything but her own dealings. And to be honest, that is still what I feel I am. But it's not how I behave. Deep down, I'm an INFP (if you don't know what that means, that's what Google is for), an extrovert in no real way. I don't like this me. She's rude, angry, talkative. I want to go back ti being quiet and seething. Crazy in my own silent way. At the least, I'd like to find a middle ground Good luck to me, eh?